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The most important thing I've learned about love is that you can't force it. No matter how much you love the person, you can't just force them to love you back. That's not the way how love works. We can talk about love and its complexities, it will probably take us forever. The way we see love is different for every couple. We must respect that. Sometimes.. I do wish that I have not experienced love at all. I've been in a relationship twice and it has taught me a lot and it has basically formed my idea about love. Uhm. I'm wishing that I have not loved at all because if you haven't experienced love yet, you're allowed to be stupid. Well it starts that way. Basically, if it's your first time to love, you have no idea how it works. You're allowed to make mistakes, do the stupid things and make the wrong decisions. Coz' that's how we learn. Basing from our past relationships, we wouldn't want those mistakes to happen again. So yeah I think you now know why I would love not to have experienced love... I'm now smarter when it comes to boys probably the main reason why I've been not dating since that very day. I'm very picky when it comes to boys. But what the hell? Who can blame me? I've been in this stage before. I should know better. But this mindset of mine about love has made me regret not taking the chance to my "forever crush". This is what happened: I've been crushing on this guy since I was in my 1st year of college. We started to talk at the end of the year but I blew him off coz' of some reason.. Then I saw him again when I went to school to enroll myself. There he was looking so freaking handsome that I felt regret for letting him go. So I started apologizing to him for what I've done. Then things were okay between us. He did ask if he can be my boyfriend. So the courting process started. But then I blew him off again. STUPID ME!!!!!!!! Since that day I've regret not taking that chance with him. He's still my crush. But whatever.. :(