Insights

They'd say I've been involved with too many people. They'd start to wonder why and speculate. I do like a lot of people and I'm lucky enough to be friends with some of them. I never expect that there are some who would like me in return. So what really comes after liking? Do I take it to the next level or WHAT? Honestly speaking, I'm not like those girls who falls for the same old pattern. If you know what I mean. I'd like to give them a little challenge, something they can either choose to tackle or they can just simply walk away.. For me, after liking them before knowing them.. BLABLA. Scratch that. For short, as I get to know them deeper, its like I like them a little less than before or I don't liek them anymore. My friends would tell my why I keep changing guys every week or a month. But it's not like that. That kinda sounds bitchy. EEW. I can't blame myself when there are some guys who would appear on this day, and if there are some from my past who keeps coming back without further notice. So tell me you random person reading this. Could you really blame me for these instances? I mean there have been some who are straightforward with what they want, some who are not consistent enough on what they are trying to show. I don't like reading signs. I'm 100% sure that I'm only showing them purte friendship. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't get too attachedto people because I don't like assuming when it comes to this thing. So tell me what's wrong with me? Why am I so hard to pursue? What am I really looking for? I'm definitely not looking for someone to be in relationship with. But if ever there's someone out there, you're very welcome to wait as I enjoy my adventures being single. HAHAHAHA. I guess I want someone who's handsome, someone who is confident as he who walks and talks, someone who values his relationship more than anything else, someone who would constantly knock me on my feet.Basically all the good qualities every girl can mention. I know I'm asking too much from my future lover. I just don't want to settle less than what I deserve. I don't want to rush myself and make hasty decisions. I've been hurt way too many times before and I'm never gonna allow myself to go through that same shit over again. So yeah. My future lover, wherever you are. I'm not in a hurry to meet you. I f ever we meet please don't freak me out. I hope you know that I could be the girl you're waiting for <3